Wow....

My dream job just fell into my lap a couple of days ago. And my dream girl left me just around the same time. Funny how things work out sometimes. I can feel the karmic scales balancing underneath my feet.

I can sit here and try to work out all the emotions I'm feeling right now, but I can't bring myself to slog through all the conflicting feelings bouncing around in my head right now. My body literally aches from the happiness, hope, fear, anger, excitement, relief and regret I'm carrying around inside of me.

I'm going to miss Milwaukee. I'm going to miss my friends. But traveling around Minnesota sounds so exciting. I'll be able to earn financial security for myself doing the thing that I love to do. But now that personal victory seems so small because I'm not going to be able to share it with the woman I love.

I miss her terribly because I love her. That hasn't changed. But because of choices she and I have made, our relationship isn't going to work. We both need to find our own way. Perhaps our paths will cross again, but I know that we will be differnent people then, changed for the better hopefully.

Who knows?